Posts tagged ‘taylor swift’

Role Reboot

It occurred to me that I linked my essay “The Year I Was Diagnosed With Lupus” to here, but that I never actually told you the circumstances of how I started reading Role Reboot and why I was so interested in publishing with them (and have been interested in doing so for the last year).

I first discovered Role Reboot after I started reading Emily Rapp’s Little Seal Blog. I believe I found Little Seal after Taylor Swift released her song “Ronan” about a different Ronan. I loved Rapp’s writing, and so I googled her and found her first book, and then the essays that she has published with Role Reboot and other places, as well. I liked that Role Reboot didn’t shy away from the nitty gritty of life, because that is what life is for many people: situations that you wish were different but are powerless to change.

I like reading about people who have atypical experiences. In Star Trek, the Vulcans say, “Infinite diversity in infinite combination,” and I believe that to be true of people, though there are experiences that are universal, each person experiences things differently. Sometimes, media can be so monotonous that it feels as though the same things happen over and over and over. To find a place where people were writing about things I’d never experienced was an incredible joy.

My experiences of life have also been quite different. Most 24 year olds don’t undergo treatment for their third autoimmune disease. Most 24 year olds aren’t incapacitated by their symptoms. So a year ago, when I first wrote things that didn’t quite fit with my memoir on chronic illness, my first thought was that maybe they were things that could be adapted for publication by Role Reboot. Almost a year later, I had an essay, not one of the pieces I’d written a year earlier, but an essay that worked on the same themes as the pieces of a year ago, published by Role Reboot, and I was ecstatic. Chronic illness isn’t a subject that many journals will broach. It is depressing. It is difficult. It is fraught. And it is scary. But I didn’t think that that would be a problem in this case. I submitted to Role Reboot first, and told myself that they would reject it. But if they had rejected it, I had no idea where else to submit it with any hope of publication.

When I heard that Role Reboot had accepted my essay, then entitled ‘The Lupus Year’, I was ecstatic.

I am so happy to be back to feeling like a writer, and I am hopeful that this coming academic year will bring more essays published, and perhaps… Perhaps it will even bring a book deal (I HOPE).

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1989

Taylor Swift’s fifth studio album came out yesterday. I’ve been listening to it pretty much non-stop.

I love “Out of the Woods”, “Wildest Dreams”, “Style”, “Blank Space”… Most of the album, haha.

I’m so happy this album is out.

Things I Wish I Wrote

I listen to a lot of music.  As much as I love melodies, harmonies and rhythm (as a former dancer, that’s a whole lot), when I listen to music, I listen to the words.  Frequently, it happens that I’ll be listening to music and pacing around wherever I am and I’ll come across a song that I wish I’d written.  That song tends to then go on repeat for the next few weeks or months.  Recently, I’ve been listening to SHeDAISY (a long-time favorite), Michelle Branch (another long-time favorite) and Taylor Swift a lot.  Some songs I just relate to incredibly, and some get me green with writers’ envy.  The song I currently wish I wrote is called ‘Mine’ by Taylor Swift.

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“Oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh

You were in college, working part-time, waiting tables

Left a small town and never looked back

I was a flight risk, afraid of fallin’

Wondering why we bother with love, if it never lasts

I say, “Can you believe it?”

As we’re lyin’ on the couch

The moment, I can see it

Yes, yes, I can see it now

Do you remember, we were sittin’ there, by the water?

You put your arm around me for the fist time

You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter

You are the best thing that’s ever been mine

Flash forward, and we’re takin’ on the world together

And there’s a drawer of my things at your place

You learn my secrets and figure out why I’m guarded

You say we’ll never make my parents’ mistakes

But we got bills to pay

We got nothin’ figured out

When it was hard to take

Yes, yes

This is what I thought about:

Do you remember, we were sittin’ there, by the water?

You put your arm around me for the fist time

You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter

You are the best thing that’s ever been mine

Do you remember all the city lights on the water?

You saw me start to believe for the first time

You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter

You are the best thing that’s ever been mine

Oh, oh, oh, oh

And I remember that fight, two-thirty AM

You said everything was slipping right out of our hands

I ran out, crying, and you followed me out into the street

Braced myself for the goodbye, cause that’s all I’ve ever known

Then, you took me by surprise

You said, “I’ll never leave you alone.”

You said, “I remember how we felt, sitting by the water.

And every time I look at you, it’s like the first time.

I fell in love with a careless man’s careful daughter.

She is the best thing that’s ever been mine.”

You made a rebel of a careless man’s careful daughter

You are the best thing that’s ever been mine

Do you believe it?

We’re gonna make it now

And I can see it

I can see it now”

So, on that note, I’m going to go back to procrastinating.